My Perfect Balance

Mind is always racing,
pace seems five steps ahead,
old age setting in,
keep forgetin' the first few.
Steady focused on the Ends,
the Means never enter into view.
Then there's you,
from where?  it depends,
always been, but for some you are new,
already inner circle so there's no getting in,
easing the tension in my head,
prepared for whatever i may be facing .

LA Kellam

Now I Listen

I feel like I'm some one else,
stepping outside myself,
to witness me become the me I should have been,
debating the impact of what could of... would of been.

Knowing what I know now,
how,
I wish I could change fate,
But already its too late.

Hindsight is is 20/20, silence is golden,
holdin' on to memories of what was spoken,
hopin' diamonds in the rough still glisten,
recyclin' thoughts for overlooked  wisdom.

LA Kellam

Me: The Monster

I've come to an understanding lately,
that maybe I'm a Monster.
Attempts to please,
do not appease, I just want to conquer.
Irrespective of perspective,
the prime directive is my survival.
Calculated and heartless,
regardless if a friend or rival,
is found in the path,
of my indiscriminate wrath.


LA Kellam

I am

I am what I am .
I am not what I used to be.
I am not what I could be.
I am what I am.
For now, anyways...

LA Kellam

Foolish Me

I put up barriers to protect me,
Love snuck you inside,
Foolish I was for trusting you,
Doubts emerge justified,
Was anything between us true?
In the end it was all lies,
The decisions you made unmade you,
Before my very eyes
Breaking my heart,
along with perceived binding ties
Dreams, and thoughts of being together forever through eternity
Removed painfully, and permanently, instantly.

By LA Kellam