Causality

I should have listened to what you are saying,
When originally it was said.
Instead,
I am constantly displaying,
Probable possibilities in my head.
I have the expectation,
That my anticipation,
Would aid the identification of flaws.
I am confident, this feat is,
Worthy to be greeted, by applause.

Yet even as I write this,
My perfect mental process proceeds to think things through.
Second guessing second guesses, validating my fears.
It appears,
Some inner reflection was overdue.
I am no where nears,
What I originally set out to do.
I treated the past when it was present with neglect,
Preparing to handle unwanted futures without pause.
In my vain attempt to prevent Effect,
I myself became the Cause.

- LA Kellam